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Draw back in silence to dwell in anxiety,
No matter where I am, I'm alone...
I'm crying outloud
The tears of blood I bleed,
So fuck the world,
I'll go now, I don't care...
412 - 062 - 966
Nothing is forever in life
But a memory believe it`s true
And when I gaze in the rain
I`m crying just for you
Warhearts :
Child Of The Damned
Dead Rose
Sex Drugs And Rock And Roll?
Down The Line? ^^
SteLa
HopeLess
Cowboy
Defender Of Light
RiP 666
Dada 666
Lapin Kulta
Fade Away
Unbeliever
The Hunter
Brutal Perversion
Poissoned Flower
Nightwishovka
Sleeping Star
Dead Knight
Deadly Wispers
Forsaken Angel
Metal Militia
Silent Scream
Vampire Lady
People Don't Die From Suicide....
Legija Očaja
I hear your silent cry
lost in the rainy night..
No reason to live for,
one reason to die for..
[..eternal wait..]
[Petri Lindroos]
+ Metal My Love +
Amon Amarth
Angel Dust
Arch Enemy
Blind Guardian
Children Of Bodom
Crematory
Dark Tranquillity
Death
Demons & Wizards
Dimmu Borgir
DragonForce
Dream Theater
Edguy
Elvenking
Ensiferum
Gamma Ray
HammerFall
Helloween
Iced Earth
Immortal
In Flames
Iron Maiden
Judas Priest
Kalmah
Kamelot
Korpiklaani
Kreator
Lost Horizon
Manowar
Megadeth
Metallica
My Dying Bride
Nevermore
Nightwish
Pantera
Rhapsody
Satyricon
Sepultura
Slayer
Sonata Arctica
Stratovarius
Symphony X
Tyr
Xandria
Wintersun
Nightfall embreces my desperate cries
As I fulfill my dark desires
The coverted hour has finally arrived
The year when darkness over skies descends
When lightning strikes the highest mountain
And open up the path to the forbidden hades
Unhallowed by the infernal one
We are forever captured
By the embrace of death
All wrecked and fucked I wonder if this is the way
I'm supposed to go.
But that is all I ever got, that
is all I'll ever get, so I just let it go..
First We Learn To Fly,
Than We Learn To Cry.
Later In The Evening We May Die...
+ My Beloved +
[In Flames]
"Spend some quality time
With the demon of mine
I like the way you struggle
But you know I'm here to win..."
Iron Maiden - No Prayer For The Dying
There are times when I've wondered
And times when I've cried
When my prayers they were answered
At times when I've lied
But if you asked me a question
Would I tell you the truth
Now there's something to bet on
You've got nothing to lose
When I've sat by the window
And gazed at the rain
With an ache in my heart
But never feeling the pain
And if you would tell me
Just what my life means
Walking a long road
Never reaching the end
God give me the answer to my life
God give me the answer to my dreams
God give me the answer to my prayers
God give me the answer to my being
Children Of Bodom - Deadnight Warrior
Before the daylight falls to the graves
into shadows,
Soon I'll be on a black-night trip,
I'll fly across the sky.
It's not a lonely flight,
This one'll be black,
The death lies always in the sky,
It reflect hatred in my eyes.
[Keyboard stuff]
If the daylight dies, the Shadow's are falling on me.
Then I'll be at your side, then death, you'll have your way
Scourging in the moonlight's shadow
I can't get out,
lost in time for eternity.
[Lead part]
You're the guard of the dead ones,
In the night I'll find you to drink your blood,
You're the Dead night's fresh meat in my arms,
The dead by night's close by!
Don't wake it up, call my name, it's death!
Set them all on a trip of pain,
I can't wait!
[Kick ass solo!]
[After solo this part comes again]
It's such a lonely flight,
This one'll be black,
The death lies always in the sky,
It reflect hatred in my eyes.
It is such a pain to die now
being so hard to wound
I always saw you standing [maybe slashing?] in the moonlight's shadow
slash me now!
Children Of Bodom - Trashed, Lost And Strungout
1 2 3 4
Another trainwrecking punch with nothing to cushion the blow
Tryin to be dangerous helping unhealthy never ready to go
Before I go high I'm very down
Theyre only going out there again and again
You try biting all the way not be one to none lost your strungout
Then again try something fucked to mess around and knock me out
Before I go high I'm very down
Theyre only going out there again and again
Maybe I shouldn't profisize my life what the fuck have I done to you
But did you ever be harrassed, with my head still tryin to tell me what the fuck to do
Before I go I hit the ground
They only tore my life down
Before I go high I hit the ground,
The only way I ever get down,
Then with the next you'll tell me where to go,
And after it I'll want more
I'm even getting to the point where I can do nothing but try to be strungout on you
Let me down, waiting down below, for the truth???????????
Until the enemies walking battered around, looking at my own reflection
For ever lost I kiss you good bye to kill my soul addiction
Blind Guardian - Nightfall
No sign of life did flicker
In floods of tears she cried
"All hope's lost it can't be undone
They're wasted and gone"
"Save me your speeches
I know (They blinded us all)
What you want
You will take it away from me
Take it and I know for sure
The light she once brought in
Is gone forevermore"
Like sorrowful seaguls they sang
"(We're) lost in the deep shades
The misty cloud brought
(A wailing when beauty was gone
Come take a look at the sky)
Monstrous it covered the shore
Fearful into the unknown"
Quietly it crept in new horror
Insanity reigned
And spilled the first blood
When the old king was slain
Nightfall
Quietly crept in and changed us all
Nightfall
Quietly crept in and changed us all
Nightfall
Immortal land lies down in agony
"How long shall we
Mourn in the dark
the bliss and the beauty
Will not return
Say farewell to sadness and grief
Though long and hard the road may be"
But even in silence I heard the words
"An oath we shall swear
By the name of the one
Until the world's end
It can't be broken"
Just wondering how
I can still hear these voices inside
The doom of the Noldor drew near
The words of a banished king
"I swear revenge"
Filled with anger aflamed our hearts
Full of hate full of pride
We screamed for revenge
"Vala he is that's what you said
Then your oath's been sworn in vain
(But) freely you came and
You freely shall depart
(So) never trust the northern winds
Never turn your back on friends"
"Oh I'm heir of the high lord!"
"You better don't trust him"
The enemy of mine
Isn't he of your kind and
Finally you may follow me
Farewell
He said
Back to where it all began
Blind Guardian - Mordred's Song
I've lost my battle before it starts
My first breath wasn't done
My spirit's sunken deep into the ground
Why am I alone
I can hear my heartbeat
Silence's all around
See hate will rise
So don't come closer
Fear your child
Born with a king's heart
But fate fooled me
And changed my cards
None asked if I want it
If I like it
Pain inside is rising
I am the fallen one
A figure in an old game
No joker's on my side
I plunged into misery
I'll turn off the light
And murder the dawn
Turn off the light
And murder the dawn
Nothing else but laughter is around me
Forevermore
Noone can heal me
Nothing can save me
Noone can heal me
I've gone beyond the truth
It's just another lie
Wash away the blood on my hands
My father's blood
In agony we're unified
I never wanted to be
What they told me to be
Fulfill my fate then I'll be free
God knows how long I tried to change fate
I plunged into misery
I'll turn off the light
And murder the dawn
Turn off the light
And murder the dawn!!!
In Flames - Pinball Map
As I aim for that bright white day
Conflict serum is my aura
It seems that life's so fragile
I guess I'll fly some other time
I lack from superhighway thoughts
Won't live as long as the city lights
Soaked by underwater times
Electric splash on a midnight drive
Wish I could rape the day,
just something radical
Lost the sense of sweet things
Who's gonna take me widely?
Guided by the pinball map
The driver, still unknown to me
Who was sent to glorify?
Before we injected this common pride
Sometimes I don't belong
Release me from your world
Pacified by the small things in life
I wait for earthquakes to rearrange
Never been able to use the force
I only have it read to me
Despite all the misguided faith
I'll find a place in this mess
Wish I could rape the day,
just something radical
Lost the sense of sweet things
Who's gonna take me widely?
Guided by the pinball map
The driver, still unknown to me
Who was sent to glorify?
Before we injected this common pride
Early morning moments
A glimpse of joy
But soon it's over and I return to dust
As I try to be
Everything and everyone
I shrivel up and waste away
Wish I could rape the day,
just something radical
Lost the sense of sweet things
Who's gonna take me widely?
Guided by the pinball map
The driver, still unknown to me
Who was sent to glorify?
Before we injected this common pride
Megadeth - Symphony Of Destruction
You take a mortal man,
And put him in control
Watch him become a god,
Watch peoples heads a'roll
A'roll...
Just like the Pied Piper
Led rats through the streets
We dance like marionettes,
Swaying to the Symphony...
Of Destruction
Acting like a robot,
Its metal brain corrodes
You try to take its pulse,
Before the head explodes
Explodes...
The earth starts to rumble
World powers fall
A'warring for the heavens,
A peaceful man stands tall
Tall...
HammerFall - The Fallen One
I saw your face in the morning sun
oh, I thought you were there
I heard your voice as the wind passed me by
silently, whispering my name
So many things that I wanted to say
forever left untold
I still remember the tears that you shed
over someone else
Our love could never die
all I can do is cry
save a little prayer for the fallen one
There is a light down at memory lane
slowly fading away
Still holding on to the dreams torn apart
I will follow my heart
Our love could never die
all I can do is cry
save a little prayer for the fallen one
Still on my own, chasing the sun
of a time long ago
The shade in my heart, tearing apart
everything that I long for
I saw your face in the morning sun
oh, I thought you were there
I heard your voice as the wind passed me by
whispering my name
Our love could never die
all I can do is cry
save a little prayer for the fallen one
HammerFall - Dreams Come True
Never thought I'd feel again, feel the darkness
fade and see the morning sun arise
Never thought I'd feel alive again, senses dull
and blunt from all the lies
Now, when I hold your face so close to mine I
see a place where the sun will shine, with you
it is divine
Looking down into those eyes, I know, I'll be
lost and never found again. Kiss me once and
I will surely melt and die, kiss me twice and I
will never leave your side...(if) Dreams Come True
Do I dare to trust this time? Ooh, the Bells of
Fortune, will I ever hear them chime?
Only those who have been burned before truly
know the meaning of Hell's flaming core
I was the brooding night and you were dawn.
Saving me, for I was forlorn, in your light I am
reborn.
Looking down into those eyes, I know, I'll be
lost and never found again. Kiss me once and
I will surely melt and die, kiss me twice and I
will never leave your side...(if) Dreams Come True
Then, when the walls are breaking down on us, when all
we see is misery
will you still believe in me?
Looking down into those eyes, I know, I'll be
lost and never found again. Kiss me once and
I will surely melt and die, kiss me twice and I
will never leave your side, until the sign of winter,
always by your side....(Dreams Come True)
Helloween - Power
Can you imagine someone being true
Turn 'round and put himself in front of you
Sometimes it's fun
But then you never know
How far a thing like this might go
All my life I've
waited for a chance to
get right out of here
and when I had it in my hands
I could not let it go
We've got the power
We are divine
we have the guts to follow the sign
extracting tensions from sources unknown
We are the ones to cover the throne
Thy if you can to come where we have gone
You may achieve what can't be simply done
look back and there
you are where we have been
and still there's so
much in between
All those years I've
travelled around this world now
I am standing here
To make you sing these tunes
and know they'll never
let you go
We've got the power
We are divine
we have the guts to follow the sign
extracting tensions from sources unknown
We are the ones to cover the throne
Metallica - Creeping Death
Slaves
Hebrews born to serve, to the pharaoh
Heed
To his every word, live in fear
Faith
Of the unknown one, the deliverer
Wait
Something must be done, four hundred years
So let it be written
So let it be done
I'm sent here by the chosen one
So let it be written
So let it be done
To kill the first born pharaoh's son
I'm creeping death
Now
Let my people go, land of Goshen
Go
I will be with thee, bush of fire
Blood
Running red and strong down the nile
Plague
Darkness three days long, hail to fire
So let it be written
So let it be done
I'm sent here by the chosen one
So let it be written
So let it be done
To kill the first born pharaoh's son
I'm creeping death
Die by my hand
I creep across the land
Killing first-born man
Die by my hand
I creep across the land
Killing first-born man
I
Rule the midnight air, the destroyer
Born
I shall soon be there, deadly mass
I
Creep the steps and floor, final darkness
Blood
Lambs blood painted door, I shall pass
So let it be written
So let it be done
I'm sent here by the chosen one
So let it be written
So let it be done
To kill the first born pharaoh's son
I'm creeping death
Pantera - Heresy
Here we are
In a world of corruption
Human nature is
Of violent breed
Who cares if there;s no tomorrow
When I die for my futures
Laid out for me
Cant you see?
Rise above the lies
Morals on a backwards globe
A sin to you
For me its hope.
Its my life and provision
Black or white
Some pay to pray
You question why they
Act this way
Its their fucking decision
No more judgement day
Only tranquility
Peace signs, protest lines
Mean nothing to me
Honesty born in me
Heresy
I know whats right or wrong
And my belief is stronger
Than your advice
People, they go to war
Because religion gives them
Reason to fight
Sacrifice, die for pride
A group that caters
No ones fees
Or synthetic deities
Is where I belong
My stand is the human race
Without a label or a face
So they can lick my sack
No more judgement day
Only tranquility
Peace signs, protest lines
Mean nothing to me
Honesty born in me
Heresy
Judas Priest - Metal Gods
We've taken too much for granted
And all the time it had grown
From techno seeds we first planted
Evolved a mind of its own
Marching in the streets
Dragging iron feet
Laser beaming hearts
Ripping men apart
From off Ive seen my perfection
Where we could do as we please
In secrecy this infection
Was spreading like a disease
Hiding underground
Knowing wed be found
Fearing for our lives
Reaped by robots scythes
Metal gods
Metal gods
Metal gods
Metal gods
Machines are taking all over
With mankind in their command
In time theyd like to discover
How they can make their demand
Better be the slaves
To their wicked ways
But meeting with our death
Engulfed in molten breath
Manowar - Battle Hymns
By moonlight we ride
Ten thousands side by side
With swords drawn held high
Our whips and armours shine
Hail to thee our infantry
Still brave beyond the grave
All have sworn the eternal vow
The time to strike is now
Kill, kill, Oh !
Kill, kill, Oh !
Kill, kill, Oh !
Kill, kill, Oh !
Gone are the days when freedom shone
Now blood and steel meet bone
In the light of the battle's way
The sands of time will shade
How proud our soldiers stand
With mace and chain in hand
Sound the charge into glory ride
Over the top of the vanguished pride
Victory, victory, Oh !
Victory, victory, Oh !
Victory, victory, Oh !
Victory, victory, Oh !
To the battle we ride
We crossed a starlit sky
No space no time
We'll catch the wind
Strange losses, men died
We crossed a starlit sky
And still no space or time
We'll catch the wind
Kill, kill, Oh !
Kill, kill, Oh !
Kill, kill, Oh !
Kill, kill, Oh !
Sound of charge into glory ride
Over the top of the anguished pride
By moonlight we ride
Ten thousand side by side
Kill, kill, Oh !
Kill, kill, Oh !
Kill, kill, Oh !
Kill, kill, Oh !
Iced Earth - Dracula
Do you believe in love?
Do you believe in destiny?
True love may come only once in a thousand lifetimes...
I too have loved...they took her from me.
I prayed for her soul....I prayed for her peace
When I close my eyes
I see her face, it comforts me
When I close my eyes
Memories cut like a knife
The blood is the life, and Christ I defy.
My sworn enemy...birth of a new creed.
Is this my reward for serving God's own war?
The blood I've spilled for faith fulfilled.
To damn her, a disgrace, you spit back in my face.
I served you loyally, and you spew blasphemy.
I avenge with darkness, the blood is the life
The Order of the Dragon, I feed on human life
There are far worse things awaiting man than death
Come taste what I have seen
I'm spreading my disease
I will feed upon His precious child
The human race will bleed, they will serve my need.
I avenge with darkness, the blood is the life
The Order of the Dragon, I feed on human life
I am the Dragon of blood, a relentless prince of pain
Renouncing God on His throne
My blood is forever stained
For true love I shall avenge
I defy the creed that damned her
Gamma Ray - Rebellion In Dreamland
Voices are calling from somewhere below
Melting on the eastern shore
Rain is falling down on me,
Been waiting for eternity...
I'll be there!
Freedom for us all!
And I wonder why, why my heart still yearns
And I wonder why, why the earth still turns
And I wonder why, why the sky turns black
Still I wonder why, but there is no turning back
For all eternity, for all the world to see
We're riding high across the wind
And when the storm begins, to wash away all sins
We'll find a place where we'll begin
There's something wrong with the world today
Only the people that are fighting for...
...A better place in the world today,
They don't believe that they gone too far,
...They're falling down
By moonlight there's a way... for rebellion
Here, the world has gone astray... revolution
now, the time has come to pray... halleluja
Deep, inside our minds we wait... for rebellion
Here in the dreamland we will not obey the masters
...And the earth still turns but I'm on my way
He is on the way, as my heart still yearns
...I'm on my way, now he is on the way,
And I cry for more
Yes, I'm on the way, now he is on the way,
Gonna find the secret wall
I have seen the secret dreams
Of those who know eternity
And makes me feel like a shadow sneaking in
In my sleep I'm searching for a way to find
The open door leading me to where it all begins
There's nothing wrong with the world today...
Now I'm riding through the air
Going to where no one dares
On the way I'll cross the line forevermore.
For once in life I do not care
Nothing matters, now I dare
On the ride I'll cross the line
Forever to be frr
Have no fear, Rebellion is here!
Kreator - Replicas Of Life
Like the strangest of all nightmares came to life
Like misfortune of all nations combined
Like the heart of what once was has turned to ice
Metropolis has taken all the dreams of creatures once godlike
Born under a dark sign of hatred terror and despair
Thorn apart from deep inside you see depression everywhere
Sanity is hard to keep in times where everything seems cursed
Victory for those who deny their souls for all they’re worth
Hell on earth
Finally open it’s gates
Silence is broken chaos is here
Dead souls are feeding the flames
Hell on earth
Nothing remains in this night
Final destruction of all
Replicas Of Life
Ice is raining on their souls
Like the coming of the last embrace
Lines show history of fear carved in stone
On this city's face
Storm winds of lava brings the doom
Of future lust and pride
Arogance of ignorant minds
Of profit finally has died
Hell on earth
Finally open it’s gates
Silence is broken chaos is here
Dead souls are feeding the flames
Hell on earth
Nothing remains in this night
Final destruction of all
Replicas Of Life
In dying cities of this world
There’s only Replicas Of Life
And as those cities drown in flame
In misery they’ll die in pain
Die in pain, die in pain
Live in fear and die in pain
Die in pain, die in pain
Live in fear and die in pain
Hell on earth
Finally open it’s gates
Silence is broken chaos is here
Dead souls are feeding the flames
Hell on earth
Nothing remains in this night
Final destruction of all
Replicas Of Life
In dying cities of this world
There’s only replicas of life
And as those cities drown in flame
In misery they’ll die in pain
Slayer - Raining Blood
Trapped in purgatory
A lifeless object, alive
Awaiting reprisal
Death will be their acquisition
The sky is turning red
Return to power draws near
Fall into me, the skys crimson tears
Abolish the rules made of stone
Pierced from below, souls of my treacherous past
Betrayed by many, now ornaments dripping above
Awaiting the hour of reprisal
Your time slips away
Raining blood
From a lacerated sky
Bleeding its horror
Creating my structure
Now I shall reign in blood!
Sepultura - Troops Of Doom
Total Eclipse Hides The Earth
The Night Of Doom Has Come
Antichrist Soldiers Are Proclaimed
To Send Souls To The Hell
Catastrophe And Destruction
Mankind Is Slaughtered Without Mercy
Suphul Clouds Are In The Air
Legions Winds Corrose The Universe
The Messiah, Redeemers Of Mankind
Chained In The Valley Of Hades
Crowds Blinded By Evil
Only Death Is Real
Total Destruction
Walls Of Churches
Stained By Blood
Altars Burning In The Flames
The Doom Cries Out For Insanity
The Nuclear War Announces The End Of The World
The Mankind Is Buried And Forgotten
Prophets Foresee The Doom
They Foresee The Triumph Of Your Death
Nightwish - Wish I Had An Angel
I wish I had an angel
For one moment of love
I wish I had your angel tonight
Deep into a dying day
I took a step outside an innocent heart
Prepare to hate me fall when I may
This night will hurt you like never before
Old loves they die hard
Old lies they die harder
I wish I had an angel
For one moment of love
I wish I had your angel
Your Virgin Mary undone
I`m in love with my lust
Burning angelwings to dust
I wish I had your angel tonight
I`m going down so frail `n cruel
Drunken disguise changes all the rules
Old loves they die hard
Old lies they die harder
I wish I had an angel
For one moment of love
I wish I had your angel
Your Virgin Mary undone
I`m in love with my lust
Burning angelwings to dust
I wish I had your angel tonight
Greatest thrill
Not to kill
But to have the prize of the night
Hypocrite
Wannabe friend
13th disciple who betrayed me for nothing!
Last dance, first kiss
Your touch my bliss
Beauty always comes with dark thoughts
I wish I had an angel
For one moment of love
I wish I had your angel
Your Virgin Mary undone
I`m in love with my lust
Burning angelwings to dust
I wish I had your angel tonight
I wish I had an angel
I wish I had an angel
I wish I had an angel
I wish I had an angel
Dimmu Borgir - Mourning Palace
Daylight has finally reached it's end
As evenfall strikes into the sky
Far away in the dark glimpsing moonlight
Sickening souls cry out in pain
Whispering voices summoning screams
Waiting for Satan to bless their sins
Blackhearted angels fallen from grace
Possessed by the search for utter darkness
Hear the cries from the Mourning Palace
Feel the gloom of restless spirits
Hear the screams from the Mouring Palace
Feel the doom of haunting chants
Eternal is their lives in misery
Eternal is their lives in grief
Abandoned in a void of nothingness
A chain of anger, a fetter of despair
In this garden of depraved beings
This unsacred place of helpless ones
Satan blessed the creatures
Inswathed them in endless night
Whispering voices, summoning screams
Waiting for Satan to bless their sins
Blackhearted angels fallen from grace
Possessed by the search for utter darkness
Dimmu Borgir - Progenies Of The Great Apocalypse
The battle raged on and on
Fuelled by the venom of hatred for man
Consistently, without the eyes to see
By those who revel in sewer equally
We, the prosperity of the future seal
Cloaked by the thunders of the north wind
Born to capture the essence of
The trails of our kind
Zero tolerance must be issued forth
Behind the enemy's line
So it shall be written
And so it shall be done
Discover and conceive the secret wealth
And pass it unto your breed
Become your own congregation
Measure the sovereignty of it's invigoration
We, who not deny the animal of our nature
We, who yearn to preserve our liberation
We, who face darkness in our hearts with a solemn fire
We, who aspire to the truth and pursue it's strength
Are we not the undisputed prodigy of warfare
Fearing all the mediocrity that they possess
Should we not hunt the bastards down with our might
Reinforce and claim the throne that is rightfully ours
Consider the god we could be without the grace
Once and for all
Diminish the sub principle and leave it's toxic trace
Once and for all
My Dying Bride - Two Winters Only
What is it you hope for, even though you are dying?
And even though life is closing your tiny eyes
Why did I leave them all?
I should be with them to die in the same place
The pain I think, should go on forever. For always
But no. Not mine. Not now. My life now begins
Call me what you will, but I'll die for no man, at all
My limbs and the life that spreads from them
Cross my path and you'll suffer like no man before, at all
What I hunger for, is the trial of God
For just two winters only did we live for
My God. What have you become? Dear, dear lord
We could have changed the world, had you been here with me.
Right now
Held you in my arms. In my arms, my love
Jesus wept so man could live forever on earth. In peace
But my tears. They fall for you. Only you
Sonata Arctica - My Selene
Nocturnal poetry:
Dressed in the whitest silver you'd smile at me
Every night I wait for my sweet Selene
But still...
Solitude's upon my skin
A Life that's bound by the chains of reality
Would you let me be your Endymion?
I would
Bathe in your moonlight and slumber in peace
Enchanted by your kiss in forever sleep
But until we unite
I live for that night
Wait for time
Two souls entwine
In the break of new dawn
My hope is forlorn
Shadows they will fade
But I'm always in the shade
Without you...
Serene and silent sky
Rays of moon are dancing with the tide
A perfect sight, a world devine
And I...
The loneliest child alive
Always waiting, searching for my rhyme
I'm still alone in the dead of night
Silent I lie with a smile on my face
Appearance deceives and the silence betrays
As I wait for the time
My dream comes alive
Always out of sight
But never out of mind
And under waning moon
Still I long for you
Alone against the light
Solitude am I
In the end I'm enslaved by my dream
In the end there's no soul who'd bleed for me
Hidden from daylight I'm sealed in my cave
Trapped in a dream that is slowly turning to nightmare,
Where I'm all alone
Venial is life when you're but a dream,
The book is still open the pages as empty as me
I cling to a hope that's beginning to fade
Trying to break the desolation I hate
But until we unite
I live for that night
Wait for time
Two souls entwine
In the break of new dawn
My hope is forlorn
We will never meet
Only Misery and me
This is my final call
My evenfall
Drowning into time
I become the night
By the light of new day
I'll fade away
Reality cuts deep
Would you bleed with me
My Selene?
Sonata Arctica - Wolf & Raven
Grant me a wish, my master
Take heed of me
I have been loyal servant
Heartfelt, humble
Gave up - what belongs to me
Gave up my greed
My self-examination
Made me see, to be me
I am now like Judas, done
Ashamed of what I've become
Fear for life I wear as a ring
To bask in your favor, I will kill the king
You say I am invincible
I cannot die,
I know, but anyway
The words, they maim me
Grant me a wish, my master
Compassion, please
I'd like be a human
...maybe one day
I am now like Judas, done
Ashamed of what I've become
Fear of life I wear as a ring
To bask in your favor, I will kill the king
[Entreaty:]
Let me go
Master, I hate you so
How can I sleep my nights
When my whole being cries
I tried to be like everyone
Open my soul
But what I had to give
Resulted loathing
Enchanted by the power
Licked by the grace
One beautiful black flower
The end of the human race
With pride now face my faith
King and Queen now lie in state
Fear for life I wear as a ring
I bask in your favor, I have killed the king
[Entreaty:]
Let me go
Master, I hate you so
How can I sleep my nights
When my whole being cries
I had a nightmare
The Wolf eating The Raven
Entrails of life on my plate
And I ate 'em..
Interested in what I see
Try that Rorcharch test on me
Have you seen the beauty of the
Enticing beast
[Entreaty:]
Let me go
Master, I hate you so
I cannot sleep my nights
When my whole being cries
Stratovarius - Eagleheart
All through the night he is lying awake
Wond'ring how much more can he take
Watching the walls where shadows dance
Drifting away into a trance.
And his eyes are blazing with fire
Dreams burnt to ashes so many times
Highest of mountains, still he climbs
Ready to fly cause he just can't stay
Flame burning brighter with every day
And his eyes are blazing with fire
Longinng for the deepest desire
Heart of an eagle
He flies through the rainbow
Into a new world and finds the sun
Spreading his wings above all the sorrows
The glory of Eagleheart
Fever is burning in his veins
Determined with courage breaking the chains
Back against the wall under blood red skies
Prepared to fight until he dies.
Amon Amarth - In Pursuit Of Vikings
The warming sun returns again
And melts away the snow
The sea is freed from icy chains
Winter is letting go
Standing on the ocean side
We can hear the waves
Calling us out with tide
To sail into our fate
Odin! Guide or ships
Our axes, spears and swords
Guide us through storms that whip
And in brutal war
Our ships await us by the shore
Time has come to leave
Our country, family and homes
For riches in the east
Some of us won't return
But that won't bring us down
Our fate is written in the web
Woven by the Norns
A ram is sacrificed
Across the longship's bow
And as we set our sails
A strong breeze starts to blow
It carries us out to sea
With hope of fame and pride
And glorious all will be
That with sword in hand will die
Odin! Guide our ships
Our axes, spears and swords
Guide us through storms that whip
And in brutal war
Arch Enemy - Diva Satanica
Divine queen of evil
Sowing her seeds of hate
Mistress of pain
Diva Satanica – Master of temptation
Medusa…abuser…both beast and beauty
Seducer…she'll use you…bring you to your knees
Blinded by her infinite beauty
You are lured into the temple
The smell of incense burning
This carnal pleasure yearning
Bride of Satan
Transgress the rules of this world
Too late you realise
This love is ripping you apart
Medusa…abuser…both beast and beauty
Seducer…she'll use you…as fodder for her dreams
Drinking the blood
Eating the flesh
She's getting high on you
Watching you die gives her a thrill
…There is always more blood to spill…
Dark Tranquillity - Of Chaos And Eternal Night
This is a tale long to live but alas so short to tell
By the wind and by time, by everything that flees
A torment of my liking: exploring extremes
All thoughts secluded as fear stalks it’s blooded soil
In the winding path where a chain now rattles
With links merely death can break
Stains of pride - derelict
In feverish visions of agonising light
Pulsating rhythms unpure
So pound the drum and strike the chords of chaos
So scream out to the skies:
Of chaos and eternal night
Never is the dark any threat to my existence
Comforting ravens claws grip the stars that fell tonight
The stealth of infinite beauty
Nevertheless heaven fell tonight
Racing along with the strangled teardrop
Life’s elixir in benevolent lust
Slit open the throat that is virtue
Let fire ravage it’s caverns with joy
Ardent but silent in twilight resigned
Delivered from virtue in vehement plight
Yet ask not of your vanity
(the hooved agitator in your creed)
To let loose all the stars of heaven
Stray across the vault your seed
Concealed cravings must through fulfilment be broken
Hide no longer behind the veil of unconvincing lies
So pound the drum and strike the chords of chaos
So scream out to the skies
Of chaos and eternal night
I’ve seen fires waving patterns
Forging ornaments - hidden from a world of distress
Grace through hatred
Of chaos and eternal night
In shadows now vengeful waiting out your bitter foe
The mirror distorts
Sinful is the perceiving eye
Tearless in nondescript form
Scarlet secrets tell of nightmarish fear
Illusions that speak of endless night
A venture in terms of one hazardous journey
Into chaos and eternal night
Deliver me from virtue,
Hidden no more beneath tender veil of lies
And let ’em all out;
Unseen and sinful
... of chaos and eternal night
DragonForce - Dawn Over A New World
In the darkness of the night in the shadows of the dawn
It's turning black no looking back the sands of time are sown
When the day will slowly end and the sun has turned to grey
Will we feel the power of freedom with the dawn of a new day?
Over mountains paved with gold and through the valleys of the slain
Our quest will lead us onwards to the journey of the brave
When the time has come to stand for the power we believe
We will ring the sound of victory for one and all to see
Sometimes in your darkest dreams you will feel the haunting pain
Silent tears of your hidden fears come to haunt you once again
Fight on for the memories of the everlasting dream
Their in the silent lands on wings of glory free
We can go on forever with the darkness so far away
And the warriors who live forever fight on to the end
Across the highest mountains and through the endless seas
Our journey ever onwards fight until we all be free
Through the darkness shining the never ending light
On through the days of glory rise towards the fight
And one day we will find a way toward this distant golden age
The cries of war will sound the day
We stand before the dawn of a new world
On through the raging thunder across the seven seas
Cold winter skies are falling on the battles we have seen
We can go on forever with the darkness so far away
And the warriors who live forever fight on to the end
Across the highest mountains and through the endless seas...
DragonForce - Through The Fire And Flames
On a cold winter morning, in the time before the light
In flames of death's eternal reign we ride towards the fight
And the darkness is falling down and the times are tough all right
The sound of evil laughter falls around the world tonight
Fighting high, fighting on for the steel
Through the wastelands evermore
The scattered souls will feel the hell that is wasted on the shores
On the blackest planes in hells domain
We watch them as they go
Through fire, pain and once again we know
So now we fly ever free
We're free before the thunderstorm
On towards the wilderness our quest carries on
Far beyond the sundown, far beyond the moonlight
Deep inside our hearts and all our souls
So far away we wait for the day
For the lights are so wasted and gone
We feel the pain of a lifetime lost in a thousand days
Through the fire and the flames we carry on
As the red day is dawning
And the lightning cracks the sky
They raise their hands to the heavens above
As we send them to their lies
Running back through the mid-morning light
There's a burning in my heart
We're banished from the time in the fallen land
To a light beyond the stars
In your blackest dreams we do believe
Our destiny this time
And endlessly we'll all be free tonight
And on the wings of a dream
So far beyond reality
All alone in desperation
Now the time is gone
Lost inside you'll never find
Lost within my own mind
Day after day this misery must go on
So far away we wait for the day
For the lights are so wasted and gone
We feel the pain of a lifetime lost in a thousand days
Through the fire and the flames we carry on
Now here we stand with their blood on our hands
We've fought so hard now can we understand?
I'll break the seal of this curse if I possibly can
For freedom of every man
So far away we wait for the day
For the lights are so wasted and gone
We feel the pain of a lifetime lost in a thousand days
Through the fire and the flames we carry on
Dream Theater - Another Day
Live another day
Climb a little higher
Find another reason to stay
Ashes in your hands
Mercy in your eyes
If you're searching for a silent
sky...
You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So die another day
The coldness of this words
The message in his silence,
"Face the candle to the
wind..."
This distance in my voice
Isn't leaving you a choice
So if you're looking for a time
to run away...
You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So try another day
They took pictures of our
dreams
Ran to hide behind the stairs
And said maybe when it's right
for you, they'll fall
But if they don't come down
Resist the need to pull them in
And throw them away
Better to save the mystery
Than surrender to the secret
You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So try another day
Nevermore - Tomorrow Turned Into Yesterday
Inside black decision concealing what no one knows but I
To regain the vision that my freewill once cast aside
Tomorrow Turned Into Yesterday
The sweet downhill sadness of our slow decay
Tomorrow Turned Into Yesterday
And I see the fault of the steps that I mislaid
Tonight the north wind spoke to the trees
And said, "Open your eyes"
Deep silver glimmer slither, drip down
And emoition dies, emotion dies
Tomorrow Turned Into Yesterday
And I see the fault in a chance that never was taken
Tomorrow turned, tomorrow's gone
But did we learn, where we went oh so wrong
Tomorrow Turned Into Yesterday
Tomorrow Turned Into Yesterday
Tomorrow turned, tomorrow's gone
But did we learn, where we went oh so wrong
Oh so wrong
Crematory - The Fallen
Newborn from fire and ashes
Dwelled with the storm and the wind
He fought with courage and vigor
Determined to step up to - up to love
Fall away-Fall behind-Fall into-Fall back-Fall
down
Fall away-Fall behind-Fall into-Fall back-Fall
down
Caught in a self built cage of life
Turned away from reality
He feels the emptyness inside
Soulless waiting for the end
Fall away-Fall behind-Fall into-Fall back-Fall
down
Fall away-Fall behind-Fall into-Fall back-Fall
down
Life thrown away and underedeemed
Covered by the fear of truth
Marred and disenchanted by many tales
Shred from juicy meat
Glorified as king and master
Tied and gagged as thief and murderer
Fall away-Fall behind-Fall into-Fall back-Fall
down
Fall away-Fall behind-Fall into-Fall back-Fall
down
Ensiferum - Tale Of Revenge
He bears a tale so gloom and tragic never to be known
Into darkness now fallen, into hatred now grown
Like stillborn child drifting in the silent seas
Of blood, crushing all his dreams
No castle walls can hold the fury in his eyes
Devotion for death, now controls his life
No gold or silver can bring him consolation
Only one thing is left inside him, the desire of revenge
One light so cold and pale, sleeping quietly all alone
One life so old and gray, wandering away from home
Parted with a horrid cry, snow falls on his grief
United by the sword of wicked screams
What deeds he has done to hear those deadful sounds
In the ruins of memories he wanders, forever bound
Forever bound to death!
Wait for me in th mountains, haunt for me in the winds
Wait for me in the land where nothing lives
Until the day I have found revenge, I will feed my sword
Until my heart is cold, every breath of mine is yours
Ensiferum - Lost In Despair
I was lost, on my own
and I couldn't bear the thought of my life
I was gone, caught in the torturing memories
And they burned like fire
water can never heal such pain
Can't you believe
Nothing is real
Can't you see
I cannot feel
Take me away
Bury me in the sand
cause after all these years I am still the same
a sad and bitter man
Crush my hope, grow my hate
There's no home for me
Nothing to give, nothing to say
so tell me it's a dream
Immortal - Sons Of Northern Darkness
Riding through the blackfires of endless time
The icy dawn lifts with an horizon like nordens on fire
Still peace breathes throughout the realm...
This ride will be the one...
The morning sun gleam upon these peaceful plains...
Far beyond the realms of fire and ice
The legions marches on...
Now blow the might horns of war
Fly throughout the sky... set fire to the land
Fly throughout the sky... Sons of Northern Darkness
Anger rideth with the one that knows no fear
Who's eyes like fire - who's hearts like ice
Spirits rideth with the ones that knows no fear
They are the Sons of northern darkness
Wisdom rideth with the ones that knows no fear
As old as the northern wind blow
Blow over grim moors...
Gathered we all storm the land...
The sound of triumph in the air
The legions marches on...
Now hear the mighty battleblasts
Fly throughout the sky... set fire to the land
Fly throughout the sky... Sons of northern darkness
Rhapsody - Rain Of A Thousand Flames
DIES IRAE
REGNA NELL' OSCURITA'
Guardians of the moonlight bring the spell alive
trought the sphere of sorrow lead my holy ride
Titans of the desert face the warlord's pride
fighters from the near lakes join the tragic night
War of the ghostland take your souls
but give us freedom once and for all
...firestorm!
UNDER THE RAIN OF A THOUSAND FLAMES
WE FACE THE REAL PAIN FALLING IN VAIN
WHILE THE DARK ANGEL SCREAMS FOR VENGEANCE
IN THE DEAD SHADOW OF FALLING STARS
Silent cries of virgins touch the heart of night
raped by the demons under painful sights
Sperm and blood and terror chaos in my head
Is the law of evil triumph for the damned
War of the ghostland take your souls
but give us freedom once and for all
...firestorm!
UNDER THE RAIN OF A THOUSAND FLAMES
WE FACE THE REAL PAIN FALLING IN VAIN
WHILE THE DARK ANGEL SCREAMS FOR VENGEANCE
IN THE DEAD SHADOW OF FALLING STARS
...Moonlight is the witness of the most tragic day for our lands...
nothing seems possible to change the destiny of war...
Lament of heroes reach the deep skies
fill the wide cosmos and free my pain... my pain!
UNDER THE RAIN OF A THOUSAND FLAMES
WE FACE THE REAL PAIN FALLING IN VAIN
WHILE THE DARK ANGEL SCREAMS FOR VENGEANCE
IN THE DEAD SHADOW
OF FALLING STARS
DIES IRAE
REGNA NELL' OSCURITA'
Symphony X - Candlelight Fantasia
Just one more night
One more score
Another question in my mind,
can't take no more
Kissing the tears form my face as
they fall
To the ground in silence
in twilight and faded time
Spirits cold, with no love
Bells ring a lonely chime
Candle fires
These lit dreams can't burn alone
Winds of change bring songs
upon my memory
An empty heart and soul
intoxicates me
This darkened page orchestrates
my final destiny
Not knowing what,
what tomorrow will bring
From within the mirrors eyes
I'm forced to run away and hide
I feel those mystic eyes subside
And leave my blind
Through passages in time
A prisoner locked beind the door
Lonely roses slowly wither and die
I can't escape this captive misery
Heart stone cold, under supremacy
Thrown into a raging sea of tyranny
Lifes vile walls have tangled me in threads
Eternally caught in my futures threads
Play the violent strings of my symphony
Transcend the absence of this fantasy
Just another vision
Washed away with the tide
No place for forgotten ones
I cannot deny
What lies beyond, beyond this fantasy
From within the mirrors eyes
I'm forced to run away and hide
I feel those mystic eyes subside
And leave my blind
Through passages in time
A prisoner locked beind the door
Lonely roses slowly wither and die
Satyricon - Mother North
Mother north - how can they sleep while their beds are burning?
Mother north - your fields are bleeding
Memories... The invisible wounds
Pictures that enshrine your throne (gone?)
A Future benighted still they are blind
Pigeonhearted beings of flesh and blood
Keeps closing their eyes for the dangers that threat... ourselves and our nature
And that is why
They all enrage me
Sometimes in the dead of the night I mesmerize my soul
Sights and visions prophecies and horror
They all come in one
Mother north - united we stand (together we walk)
Phantom north - I'll be there when you hunt them down
Edguy - Roses To No One
I'm feeling this time as bad as never before
A bleeding wag is fading away
Once you needed me for spending delight
But below this funny mask there's a crying face
The way that I smile is the way that I cry
But you'll never realize
My reputation is the one of a fool
Now watch how a poet dies, hear a poets cries
And I dedicate my roses to noone
Cause there is no mind to help me to see
A reason we need, a light for the lonesome
And noone to drink the blood that I bleed
The poet inside wasn't given a chance
So he had to live apart
And I realized my best friend am I.
And not those parasites who
Try to stare into my heart
The way that I feel is the way that I heal
My body and soul and my life
And I know you just think I'm a fool
New watch like a poet flies, see him rise
And I dedicate my roses to noone
Cause there is no mind to help me to see
A reason we need, a light for the lonesome
And noone to drink the blood that I bleed.
Xandria - Ravenheart
Come to me, Ravenheart
Messenger of evil
Come to me. What's the news?
Here I'm still left lonely
You shadow of forgotten dreams
You come to take away
My hope on your black wings
Of love & hate the singers tell
But I feel more, more of both,
More than heaven & hell.
I take a bow to destiny.
Now I have really learnt my part
Once loving him, now hating love
I've made mistakes, my Ravenheart
Will I get back who I adore?
Thus spoke the raven: nevermore.
Wintersun - Winter Madness
Divine creations now destroyed to uncover the haunted atmosphere
Strange visions of the ancient spirits, travesty of man appears
Coldness and the storming winds lurking for prey
The forces of the Winter reign in dreadful way, there´s no escape
I´m following the mistress of night
Through the gates of snow we´ll fly
We´ll fly
Winter - The realm of eternal ice
Snowfall and darkness descends upon the vales of time
Distant caress of the sun´s fading light
The lands were painted white with the Winter´s might
My hands are frozen, my mind is at the edge of madness
Oh how many nights and days, I´ve been lost in this land of sadness
From the primitive thoughts, under the glimmering snow
and burning stones - they´ll rise -
The artful spirit: "You don´t have to die,
you can rule in afterlife, just concede your soul to me,
(your life is cheap) - no price -"
Angel Dust - Bleed
Frightened Shadows
Appear behind the light
And the coldness seizes me
A paralyzing pain catches me again
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Another day is over
see horror on the screen
The shadows gonna
touch my heart
A skeleton hand
that bears all the grief
Does lightly stroke my sleeping emphaty
Can I leave and close my eyes
for one more night
Can I pay to be set free
of all this pain
That makes me bleed
Gotta meet the pries
and ask for his help
Will the collection
heal my soul
Can money clear the temple
of prejudice and lies
Can I reach heaven and enter paradise
Love and faith
Future and hope
Never appear in their lives
Has all guilt been payed
by the death of christ
Or is there something to apologize
Death - The Philosopher
Do you feel what I feel, see what I see, hear what I hear
There is a line you must draw between your dream world and reality
Do you live my life or share the breath I breathe
Lies feed your judgment of others
Behold how the blind lead each other
The philosopher
You know so much about nothing at all
Ideas that fall under shadows of theories that stand tall
Thoughts that grow narrow upon being verbally released
Your mind is not your own,
What sounds more mentally stimulating is how you make your choice
So you preach about how Im supposed to be, yet you dont know your
Own sexuality
Lies feed your judgment of others
Behold how the blind lead each other
The philosopher
You know so much about nothing at all
Demons & Wizards - Blood On My Hands
And as I bear my inner soul
I've kept it hidden and safe
Fulfill the gods' desire
To hold their waning flame
A sacred life
And what have started long ago
Ois heading towards the end
There's no easy way out
There's blood on my hands
But I am sure in the end
I will prove I was right
Runes of a long forgotten time
Ancient spells in endless rhymes
Soon the other world appears
Roam to the ghostly river Rhine
Leave the misty shades behind
I can feel I'm getting near
Lost in time
I wonder why they are lost in time
Lost in time
The curse lives on
Still chasing me
It's always been there by my side
And it won't let me out
A treacherous leaf
And a secret unsealed
It will cause deadly wounds
Roam to the ghostly realms at nights
To cleanse the dark shades of my mind
Leave the mortal world behind
Float to the endless streams of time
An eternal ray of light
Leave my mortal shape behind
Lost in time
Oh it seams they're lost in time
Lost in time
The blood on my hands you see
Cannot be washed away
I am chosen by destiny
To dwell in misery
Elvenking - Trows Kind
Concealed from the view Hidden from the knowledge of Men
A little kind through trees it lives Nymphs of dark
and lust "Fairy of bad fate!" Somebody tells
he has seen Some of the little ones Some even that
have talked with them So nice and handsome "Please, don't be such a fool! Tell everyone that
the witches come tonight" bridge: Desire
grows, denial howls Your will has gone "Divine the
wicked multitude Worship your servitude" Enthroned
and ringed with gold Of the mighty old oak I'm
on the lightness side chorus: Daughters and
sons There are times to carry on, All my life for
you Keep on singing my tale Deny the Trows kind Don't you dare to stay behind? Through years and
centuries, through myth and poetry Our race's
slowly dying in the heart of mankind Deep in
the woods They're dressed with the fruits of earth
Arcane adorers of the roots Dance Henking tonight
"Fairy of bad fate!" -bridge and chorus- Trapped in a web of branches and leaves dead You hear voices reciting a prayer... come nearer and
see! "Hare hare good sent the care I am in a
haire likeness, just see me there But I shall be in a
woman's likeness soon"
Kalmah - The Black Waltz
And she walks her way so treatled
Leads away from the bless she´s earned
Gone away the meaning
Before the day against the morning
Down the path of the blind souls she walks
Through the dreams of mystery
Tryin´ to reach the touch of human
Finds the way to the secret lands
Calling is guiding
Dazzling her instincts
Hymn of temptation keeps calling Makes her to believe the dream
She wants to lay to rest
And to take away her veil
Soon will feel the touch of the Taker And will see the eyes of the Caller
Can´t resist the feeling
Hand in hand they will fall into sleep
Dancing with me
Forever the black waltz
Kamelot - Lost & Damned
Helena you came to me
When seemingly life had begun
Little did I know then
Where this would go
When this begun
Once I was free to fly...
I never promised anything
This may well be goodbye
Don't ask why
Don't be sad
Sometimes we all
Must alter paths we planned
Only try understand
I try to save you
From the lost and damned
Although you hold me close
I feel retention arise
Just as a hint of fear
Like subtle clouds
In summer skies
Once in the moonlight...
I can't explain
And I don't know
Somehow we may reunite
Don't ask why
Don't be sad
Sometimes we all
Must alter paths we planned
Don't forget what we had
But let me save you
From the lost and damned
Love means nothing to me
If there is a higher place to be
Helena don't you cry
Believe me; I do this for you
Heed my decision now
I will be gone tomorrow noon
My tale has just begun
Nothing can take my faith away
In my quest for the sun
Don't ask why
Don't be sad
Sometimes we all
Must alter paths we planned
Only try understand
I try to save you
From the lost and damned
Don't ask why
Don't be sad
Sometimes we all
Must alter paths we planned
Leave me behind
Because deep within you know
I'm lost and damned
Korpiklaani - Under The Sun
When all around is burning
you are the flame, you are the sun
you�ll burn your way to a secret place
to a place where you can breathe
When all around is drowning
you are the one who can fish me up,
the drowning man, out of the lake,
the only one I let to do it
You are the one
(I just want to fly˝)
You are the one
(I just want to rise˝)
You are the one
(I just want to see˝)
You are the one
(Under the sun˝)
You are the one˝
When my whole world is turning
you are the one who holds the strings
your strength gets me back on my feet
When my powers are falling.
Lost Horizon - Heart Of Storm
Rising from the ruins
Yet my mind is burning
Flames reflect those years of torment
Life that drowned in fire
Death was my desire
Path of hate was a relief for me
And then we stood there eye to eye
The darkest grief against a pure heart
Life baptised in metal By the secret of steel you are blessed, hail!!!
Gift of power helps you vanquish All the mortal's plagues
Heart of storm - I feel... the force is clean again
Heart of storm - deep inside of me
Heart of storm - and when I tear all roots of pain,
Heart of storm - grief and agony, then I'll be free
Hey! Ride on the wind!
Lightning pierced my body
Back again I'm rising
Now you hear my primal calling
Shout out even higher
War's now our revival!
Voice of truth is cryin' out for me
And now we're standing side by side
The tamed old hatreds next to mine
Watch me ride on the thunder
Followed by the warriors of steel, hail!!!
Strive for justice, fight for freedom
Yeah! This war is real!
Heart of storm - I know... the force is clean again
Heart of storm - all inside of me
Heart of storm - and now I kill all grief and pain
Heart of storm - Hey! And I kill the misery!
Now the force is clean again
All inside of me
And as I've killed all grief and pain
I crushed the agony, and now I'm free
And my heart of storm
I know... I know everything
I am everything
I'm alive
Tyr - HaiL To The Hammer
Longing eyes turn into the sun
Low in the winter
Grey as a wolf now the wind has come
Cold as a hunter
Ride across the sky, thunder roll and lightning fly
Gone is the summer
What will keep us warm in the winter
Tales of those who died, sword in hand in times gone by
Hail to the Hammer
Narrow eyes turn against the wind
Out from the ocean
Until the day when we sail again
Life is a long pain
Ride across the sky, thunder roll and lightning fly
Gone is the summer
What will keep us warm in the winter
Tales of those who died, sword in hand in times gone by
Hail to the Hammer
To the god of thunder
The god that's protecting us all
All hail to the giant hunter
And hail to the forces of nature all
Ride across the sky, thunder roll and lightning fly
Gone is the summer
What will keep us warm in the winter
Tales of those who died, sword in hand in times gone by
Hail to the Hammer
Tako su bile hladne te kiše koje su se slijevale niz moje lice dok sam ja u noći plakala, dok sam ih skrivala, dok me unutra razaralo od same pomisli na dešavanja..onaj hladni vjetar koji me grlio danima, koji je parao moje ruke, moje tijelo, onako oštro kao žileta na goloj koži..bol koja je nastajala tako postepeno, prvi udarac, prvi pad nakon tako dugo vremena mira i tišine..umjesto da se bol smanjuje postajala je sve jača i jača, a vjetar je postajao sve oštriji i oštriji, kiše su i dalje padale..niz moje lice..niz moj vrat, ramena, ruke..nakon nekog vremena ih više ni ne osjećam, ne osjećam da padaju na mene, ne osjećam tu hladnoću..nego kao sitne iglice posute po mom tijelu, kao trnci..
počinjem ignorirati vlastite osjećaje, zatvaram ih u sebe, postajem onakva kakve su kiše, kapi..hladne, kratkotrajne..i ponajviše beživotne..
..over the hills and far away,
she prays he will return one day..
as sure as the rivers reach the seas,
back in his arms is where she'll be..
..Tada sam shvatila koliko sam pogriješila..
Koliko toga nije bilo stvarno..
Koliko su mali oni osjećaji bili..
Shvatila sam da nisam nikada uistinu voljela, shvatila sam da je ljubav puno više od onoga što sam osjećala prije..
....sada znam.
Teško je izdržati ovu tišinu..ovaj mir je tako..tako težak..
..nedostaješ mi.
I believe in everything I see,
Every second is a miracle for me..
I believe after sunshine comes the rain,
And when it's pouring down the only thing I feel is pain..
Their deeds shall be heard,
Their legend will live forever..
They are the Guardians Of Fate..!
savršenstvo..
Those who travelled far away from home, they'll never return..
and those who crossed the seas of hope, they all will burn..
….
Evo, za sad, što se novog posta tiče, to je sve..
Uglavnom, nisam imala internet neko malo duže vrijeme, pa i nisam bila u mogućnosti da neš napišem tu..
Vjerojatno za par dana opet novi post..
[Ensiferum ~ Old Man]
….
m/(-_-)m/
HaiL.
Edguy ~ When A Hero Cries <3
Lako je pasti kada si na dnu i bez nade, lako se utapati u vlastitoj krvi te uživati u tuđoj.. kada ne poznaješ ništa osim boli i nemaš što izgubiti.
Kako preživjeti pad za koji i neznaš razloge?
Kako se pomiriti sa činjenicom da konci više nisu u tvojim rukama?
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Sjećam se da je jednom padala kiša.. isprala je prašinu sa cvijeća a iz mog srca čak i bolne uspomene.
Da, sjećam se te tople proljetne kiše i pitam se danas..
Zašto nikad nije isprala moje lice.. isprala te suze.. zašto su one ostale?
Remember, my child..
Without innocence
The cross is only icon
Hope is only an illusion
And Ocean Soul
Is nothing but a name..
Shadows of evening on a traveller's way
Destiny tells where the strange path will lead you
Alone I've been walking this path every day
Under the stars and the white silver moon
I hear a song and I'm closing my eyes
While it's sound is carresing my poor and sad mind
Will you tonight give your promise to me
For one day the silence will sleep in your dreams
I've been waiting for so long time
To see the light of golden bright sun
I feel no sorrow in the heart of mine
For the tears of life are now gone
Winds are whispering in the sacred forest
Dancing and singing with the red autumn leaves
These memories I could never forget
With rising sun I shall be here with thee
The winter fell on me and ended my life.
The darkest hour is now here.
Yet one more frozen month, my Hell awaits me,
Out in the cold and windy night.
Still waiting for a sign.
...
Pratila me sreća, kao i nesreća.
Pratilo me veselje, kao i tuga.
Uživanje patnja, boli..
Kroz sve sam to prolazila..Prolazim, i prolazit ću..
Children Of Bodom ~ You're Better Off Dead
Seven lonely lies written on Deadwinter's night,
open the only book with the only poem I can read...
In blood I sign my name and seal the midnight with a tear.
Burn the paper, every line for them I cried...
Ovdje, sada, u ovom svijetu i u ovom vremenu... Drugačije je.
Postoji sve, ne postoji ništa.
Ali pravilo života ostaje: pokloni, ali i uzmi.
Zašto onda živjeti?
Zašto kad sve što dobiješ moraš platiti?
Život ne poklanja.
Život uzima.
A smrt... Smrt je onakva kakvom je ti zamišljaš.
Izbor je tvoj.
My pain is constant and sharp... And I do not hope for a better world for anyone.. Infact.. I want my pain to be inflicted on others...
Kapi kiše padale su na moje dlanove...
No, ja ih nisam osjećala...
Daleko od stvarnosti... Izgubljena u vremenu...
Izgubljena u sebi... Još dalje od života...
Na tren sam poželjela osjetiti... Samo osjetiti?
Hladno srce u meni je napuklo...
Poželjela sam osjetiti toplinu... Njega...
Nepomično sam stajala... Nisam osjećala sebe...
I...
Plakala...
„Needed to sing, the very notes I heard.
Had to stay in the shadows and seek for the loneliness.
Nevertheless, the price was higher than I realized.
I was to live alone, ready to make the sacrifice.
Was I in love with you...“
I još samo ovo :
Evo, sada bi , recimo, bilo vrijeme da ja napišem nešto novo. A sad, malo za promjenu.
Hm, neznam zapravo…O čemu da pišem?
U školi sam sad…Napravila sam što je trebalo, i sada sjedim, razmišljajući, slušam HammerFall….
Gledam oko sebe, pokušavam pronaći inspiraciju.
„Save A Little Prayer For The Fallen One..“
Ta pjesma..Meni najdraža od HammerFalla. No, nema veze.
Prošli sat smo pisali ispit, i baš mislim koliko bih trebala dobiti pa da za polugodište imam 4.
Ma, uopće ne sumjam da će mi bod faliti do 4 i onda ću imati 3.A to je ocjena koju toliko mrzim.
No.. Nema veze.
„No need for sympathy,
The misery that is me..“
Još 25 minuta do kraja sata. Sedmog.
Dolazi onaj zakon solo na pjesmi..
„Sell me the infection..“
Ah, joj.. Ja sam jedna tako sjebana komplicirana osoba, da je teško povjerovati. Nikako da nađem smisao.
No, nema veze. Hm…Čiju sliku da stavim sad na kraju posta..
Ma, znam…čemu uopće razmišljati..
„The Reaper Is On The Other Side..Let's Go!!“
Bye Bye..
„My song of the end
I had seen it in my dreams
My song of the end
I can't stop the darkening clouds..“
Thank You, My Guardian....
Evo tu sam, opet, po tko zna koji put, sjedim i razmišljam., a u pozadini svira ova pjesmica...
Nekako, kao da sama sebe navodim da budem tužna, a nemam razloga za to.
Razlog nije u sadašnjosti, ali se vjerojatno krije u prošlosti koju sam davno zaključala i s kojom sam završila...Barem sam tako mislila.
Neko vrijeme sve je dobro, ne razmišljam previše o ničemu, ali onda nešto dođe da se sjetim svega.
Htjela ili ne htjela, iz nekog poznatog ili nepoznatog razloga, sama sebi svjesno i nesvjesno nanosim bol.
Dugo mi je trebalo da to sama sebi priznam, da sam ja ta koja si nanosi bol, samu sebe navodi na suze.
Uporno vrtim riječi u glavi, uporno vrtim one pjesme koje izazivaju najdublje emocije.
Zašto?
....Nevermind.
Tmurni oblaci u jesen su činili moju zaštitu. Osjećali su se kao i ja - prazno i dosadno. Cijedili su izvor kajanja, suze anđela sa neba. Moje oči su se slagale s njima, pustile su par zaboravljenih suza, koje su se stapale sa suzama anđela. Nikoga nije bilo - samo ja... i moji oblaci.
Umorna koljena su mi dotakla mokri asfalt. Spojili smo se kao prijatelji koji se dugo znaju, ali se nisu dugo vidjeli. Uska ulica u koju sam se zavukla je polako tonula u zaborav. Čula sam samo tiho rominjanje, ni previše oštro, ni previše blago. Do krvi je boljela pjesma prozirnih kapi i vjetra. Bila je to melodija uvelih duša. Te duše su u grešnim rukama osobe koja pati izgubljena u pejzažu boli.
Kiša je prestajala. Samo se još poneka anđeoska suza spuštala na dno. Oči su se počele sklapati, zaposjela me bol i znala sam da više ne mogu. Osjetila sam da tonem, da sam slomljena i uništena. Više ničega se nisam sjećala. Trajalo je dugo... kao vječnost. Sanjala sam planine, jedno nasmijano lice i kišu. Kišu sam vidjela već negdje. Bila sam sigurna da znam taj kišni pejzaž. Planine i nasmijano lice su mi bili i ostali nepoznati.
Osjetila sam vreli dodir na obrazu. Probudila sam se. Bol se vraćala... uvijek se vrati. Ležala sam na toplom asfaltu jedne tako poznate ulice. Nisam se mogla sjetiti odakle je znam... ni sada ne znam zašto mi je poznata. A onda, vidjela sam dugu na nebu i jednu otvorenu stranicu dnevnika, umrljanu nečim crvenim...
„Oh, how I wish,
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again...
My loving heart,
Lost in the dark,
For hope I'd give my everything...“
Nemo My Name....Forevermore.
For My Pain... ~ Autumn Harmony
Srce kuca zvukom tuznih simfonija straha. Krv tece brzinom leta vrana. Misli su tu, ali dusa je odlutala... Odlutala sa vranama na skrivena mjesta davno izgubljenog svijeta. Izgubljeni svijet gdje sunce ne sija, duge su crne, a kiše vječno padaju... Svijet za izgubljene duše... Da ih tješi i pruža im nadu za neostvarene snove... Suze anđela padaju sa suzama običnog čovjeka... Jecaji se prostiru grobljima srušenih snova i zaboravljenih nada... Svijet koji postoji samo u srcima palih anđela.
For My Pain... ~ Rapture Of Lost
Samo jedna duša daje tračak svjetlosti i nade za nešto više. Sjedi na klupi lažnih snova i bajki, uporno gledajući u ono što ne postoji. Osjeća samo svoju usamljenost i tugu; vječni vapaj za životom čuje se u usnulom predgrađu njenog srca. Neizostavna bol se provlači kroz suhe grane žalosne vrbe svirajući svoje najbolnije pjesme... pjesme koje lede krv u žilama i stvaraju pomutnju i u glavi najsretnijeg bića.
„Memories in the screams of the gate,
My past slowly fades
Questions are stones on my way
I'm still walking anyway...“
Sonata Arctica ~ UnOpened
Za početak :...
Teško je opisati osjećaj.
Tuga, bol, grižnja savjesti.
Umorna sam i iscrpljena.
...
Koliko god da sam nesretna, njegovo ime nikad neću izgovoriti naglas.
Čitav prošli život vidim kao dugu poslije kiše, sa svakim novim danom misli me odvedu u one prošle dane.
...
Glazba je bol, ona me otvara, i zatvara u nekim trenucima...
Sonata Arctica ~ ...Of Silence
Pitam se zašto da netko toliko pati za mnom. Kao što sam i ja za nekim.
Patnja je možda preteška riječ. Nažalost, tražim tužnu riječ ali je nema.
Pa mi samo pada na pamet – „zašto sam tužna ako izgledam sretno.“
Iznutra sam isto sretna, ali vjerojatno ljudi oko mene koji me malo bolje poznaju, vide da fali nešto.
„You can always close your eyes to the things you don't wanna see...but you can't close your heart to the things you don't wanna feel.“
Sonata Arctica ~ Tallulah
I znam da ce jednog dana zauvijek otici iz mog srca. Onako kako je i dosao, polako i necujno. Zato sada zelim da ga osjetim... da mu jos jednom cujem glas... prije nego sto mu kazem „zbogom“ i zauvijek nestanem u slatkom nemiru mojih snova, prekrivena zaboravom i tihom usnulom melodijom...
...
Nade iščezavaju... nema te duše koja je znala da će tako biti. Otišla je... Nekada je sjedila tu, na vjetru ljubavnih pjesama i tupo gledala ni u što. Sada je nema. Otišla je... ili nikada nije ni postojala? Ali, tragovi u snijegu su ostali... ili su to rane palih anđela?
Sonata Arctica ~ Wolf & Raven
Noc je tako tiha i mracna, cak se ni uvelo lisce ne cuje dok tiho pada sa grana i nestaje noseno vjetrom u daljini ovog naseg grada punog tuznih uspomena i neizgovorenih rijeci. Bilo je i ponekih sretnih trenutaka, priznajem, ali svi su oni prekriveni velom zaborava i tuge koja se bezobrazno igra mojim srcem i dusom.
"..and my tears will furrow my
cheeks and will rush in the
endless ebony abyss of
torment.."
Molitva u noći...Plači sa mnom u ovoj mračnoj tišini.
Neka tvoji prsti miluju moju hladnu kožu, a tvoje lice slijedi moj posljednji dah. Sjena grijeha zamračila je dušu, osjećam kako sjene dodiruju moje tijelo. Moje će oči vidjeti tamu gdje će uspomene na mene potonuti i biti zaboravljene. Hladnoća...
Topline nema ovdje, u ovom tijelu smrznutom poljupcem smrti.
Besprijekorno krvavo cvijeće leži na nevinom grobu.
...
Samoća, iza napoznatih puteva. Čistoća je umrla sa mnom, a tvoje će suze izbrisati griješnu krv.
Samo me polegni u duboke sjene, i pusti me da umrem sa šapatom jesenjih kiša.
„We played with the fire
Burning souls in the flames
Call me a liar
But now it's not the same
Silently creeping
Soon we were torn apart
By what once was sleeping
In the shadows of my heart
Forgive me„
Lost in your dark eyes
I have seen your shadow world
Moments of madness
Slowly drowning in your love
I promise you nothing
But this earthly misery
Would you share it with me?
High, much higher than moon
Flies away the angel of love
Deep, much deeper and true
Is the sea of emotions we share
The poem so beautiful
Can turn into nightmare before we know
The secret bound of our blood oath
Keeps us together until the dawn
Previše razbijenih obećanja u mom krhkom životu.
Previše tajnih misli koje sam pokušala sakriti, one noći.
Tako sam se trudila pobjeći. Ali bol je bila svugdje...
Ne. Uzmite ovu bol. Čak i na jedan dan.
Sada, plačem na svom grobu...Molim vas, oslobodite me.
„Let's cut the wings away
and the angel has fallen again
Together in eternal flames
Where the cold razor cares“
Kao lišće visokog drveća, venem i padam.
Rođena uz jesenje vjetrove...
Sama sam u zagrljaju tihe tuge.
Živjela sam svojim životom.
I što ću sada naći,Ako sve što vidim je tama?
Pustite me da umrem i probudim se slijepa
od blještave oštrice ispred mene, pjevajući uspavanke gubitka.
Šaptajući – „Smrt je tvoj spas, za raj koji si izgubila.“
Zašto da ostanem gdje ne pripadam?
Kad slabost izjeda moju nutrinu...I prazan oklop.
Izgubila sam put do svjetlosti.
Pozdravljat ću zoru koja ne nosi život. Nema nježnih zraka sunca da očiste crnu noć.
Moje mračno lutanje je završilo.
Skrivam se u sjenama .
Sama sam u sjeni neizrecive tuge.
Sama sam u vatri sjene straha.
Odvedite me, ili će moje srce umrijeti bez šapata nade...
The dawn will never rise again for my eyes
And I will never sleep again
I've lost my hope time after time
Cause the light has vanished from the sky
Pjesme o ljubavi i mržnji. Ali osjećam više, više od toga, više od pakla i raja. Priklanjam se sudbini. Sada sam zaista naučila. Voljela sam, sad mrzim ljubav.
Borila sam se sa istinom. Tako dugo dok sam živjela ljubav, bojeći se svih rješenja koje sam pronašla. Utapala sam se u jezeru suza koje sam isplakala.
Spali moju kožu, i dotakni me, daleko, daleko odavde...odvedi me duboko ispod...znam da je prekasno, kada je počelo...sada pusti vatru da gori. Odvedi me daleko...
Besprijekoran si, u svojoj nježnoj grubosti...kada dotakneš moje srce...
Znam da ne griješim...
Premalo za život, previše za smrt...
Od ljubavi...
...
Bards You Are, Bards You Will Be
And Bards You Have Always Been!! <3
Hidden from daylight I'm sealed in my cave
Trapped in a dream that is slowly turning to nightmare,
Where I'm all alone
Venial is life when you're but a dream,
The book is still open the pages as empty as me
Ostavila sam polje krvi za sobom. Ništa ti ne znači. Ostali su ožiljci na meni. Bez tebe sada, slobodna sam.
Otkrila sam što si mi učinio. Mrzim sa isto toliko strasti koliko i volim.
I sada, tvoje je vrijeme došlo, za mene.
Kraj. Tvoj kraj. I moje ponovno rođenje.
Otiđi. Smij se i otiđi.
Uvijek ću se sjećati. Pitaš se zašto?
Past ću kroz tvoje beskrajno nebo. Ali nikad neću plakati. Ranjena tvojom okrutnošću...Da. Patit ću.
„Dying I will pray to the moon“
And I think that I told you
I'd wait for you forever...
Now I know somenone else is holding you,
So for the first time in my life...I must lie.
Lie's a sin, mess that I am in...
Life is not the thing I feel know
I promise you...I won't write again 'til the sun sets
Behind your grave...
Polako zaboravljam prošlost.
Stvari postaju drugačije...
Ništa više ne postoji.
Sve je nepotrebno.
Osjećam...
„As we sin, so do we suffer...
I've fallen from grace,
Want to turn back time and make it undone...“
I evo spot mojih ljubljenih Guardianaca...
Meni jako draga pjesma... The Bard's Song!
„I am lost in the black chamber
There's no way to turn back
It takes me down forevermore
And death would be so sweet“
Suze na licu, krv na tlu..
Čvrst zagrljaj samoće.
Obavijena plaštom tuge,
Sjedim s pogledom uprtim u prazno.
Duboko u umirućem danu,
Pronalazim utjehu..
Nevino srce opet plače.
Padam u ponor neispunjenih želja.
Izgubljena u mraku i svojim strahovima,
Žalim za svim neizgovorenim riječima.
I ova priča završava,
Sa mržnjom i lažima..
„My soul is lost
In his black chamber...“
“I'm gone...“
ja volim blind guardian. ja oću na blind guardian. ja idem na blind guardian. ja ne idem na blind guardian. ali ja oću na blind guardian. ja volim blind guardian. ja jako volim blind guardian. ja jako želim na blind guardian. ja jako volim blind guardian. ja idem na blind guardian. zapravo ne idem na blind guardian. ali ja jako volim blind guardian. i ja idem na blind guardian. ili ne idem. ali oću. i volim blind guardian.
....
„A sad song it was,
Through renewal it brought
And a month seems sometimes shorter
Than a half nights longing“
Posljednjih dana osjećam se užasno.
Zapravo bolje reći, tužno.
Totalno sam sjebala stvar i to me ne ostavlja na miru.
A početak škole je sjebao mene.
Neću o tome, nije vrijedno...
Imam osjećaj kao da ću se rasplakati svakog trenutka.
I mogla bi...
Ali neću, mislim da nije vrijedno.
„Do you wish to sleep?
Do you aim for the shadow?
Do you feel infected?
It's life-the dark that binds you“
U posljednje pokušavam vjerovati u rečenicu
„ Sve se događa s razlogom. „
Ne razumijem.
Pokušavam vjerovati u to, ali to me još više sjebe.
Ako se sve dogodi s razlogom, zašto su posljedice takve?
A vjerojatno je to samo moj problem...
Umorna sam od svega toga.
Ne mogu doći k sebi.
Kad bolje razmislim, i nemam tako veliki problem,
ali problem je u tome što ga ja neznam riješiti.
Imala sam taj osjećaj već prije, ali ovo sada je još teže.
Nemam pojma kaj da napravim.
Možda da prestanem o tome, ionako nitko nezna o čemu govorim,
tj. pišem.
Al to mi je sad tolko okupiralo pamet da ne mogu
razmišljati o nečemu drugome, barem ne trenutno.
„But I won't let you near
Begging for you to understand
The fear that lives in my soul
Which is an untouched spring“
....
Evo slika od benda kojeg sam u posljednje vrijeme jako zavoljela...
[Blind Guardian]
Previše se stvari događa u isto vrijeme....
Jednostavno ne mogu sve pratiti.
Sjedim sama u maglovitom prostoru svoje sobe i čekam da se nešto desi.
Uvijek sa nadom da hoće, iako sam već odavno shvatila...Da neće.
Slušam uvijek samo neke tužne, osjećajne pjesme i pronalazim se u svakoj od njih.
Zvuk glazbe me vuče sa sobom.
Nevjerojatno....
Kad bih barem znala što me čeka.
...
People like you;
you live in a dream world
You despise the outside
and you fear the next one
It’s in your dream
There’s just one question
Should I kill
Or should I be left behind?
Sick and tired of all your complaints
This is the hour, we bring it down
I’ve come to realize
That every little glimpse you fade
I was told that I could fly
When least expected - cloud connected
You seem to be so introverted
How come we fail with all that is given
You crossed the line
You remember my name
Time runs backwards
As we're heading that way
I've Come to realize
That every little glimpse you fade
I was told that i could fly
When least expected - cloud connected
Never ever talk, never ever smile
Knowing that my life won't be the same
Never ever touch, never ever feel
I will never hear you call my name
Never ever talk, never ever smile
All I see: a future full of fear
Never ever touch, never ever feel
I can never whisper in your ear…I'm sorry
Dark nails of faith are pushed through my veins..
Blood, cold as ice, dripping on the floor.
Wind is blowing through hollow trees..
I feel the taste of sin on my lips.
Sitting bared on the tomb,I feel like a helpless child,
with no strenght to stand, to go away,to touch the light I've felt inside..
I'm trying to find my consolation in a wilting rose..
I have seen an angel crying, I have smiled to his tears,
not knowing that my eyes have even more tears to cry,
and my hands even more blood to spill..
I see a darkened sky behind me..
Full moon is hiding behind the cloud,
afraid to show his beauty..
A drop of my blood on the white rose..
Now roses are bleeding, and the stars are crying..
Silent tears in the darkness, of me, abandoned by the world..
Darkness is calling my name..I'm dying slowly, without fear,
in the black embrace of the darkness, my only friend..
..Kill Me..Hurt Me..Kill Me..Hurt Me..
Zao mi je...
Ja sam to zasluzila...
Zasluzila sam da budem sama...
Zarobljena sam u svom svijetu...
Zao mi je...
Sto ne mogu izraziti svoje stvarne osjecaje...
Ja sam kriva...
Ja sam losa osoba...
Zao mi je...
Sto sam uvijek na krivom mjestu u krivo vrijeme...
Nema sunca...
Samo kapi kise na mojim dlanovima...
Ili su to samo suze?
Zao mi je...
Sto me nitko ne cuje...
Sto me nitko ne zeli cuti...
Ja nisam znala...
Da cu i sutra voljeti...
I da ce boljeti...
Zao mi je...
OVO JE ZADNJI NA NEKO VRIJEME.
NEBUDEM VISE PISALA TAK ČESTO.
KAD POCNE SKOLA I NABAVIM PROKLETI KARNET PISEM DALJE ČESTO KAK SAM I PRIJE.
A NEMAM BAS NI VOLJE NI ISPIRACIJE....
NEZNAM....
Bježala sam od Ljubavi.
Mislim da sam shvatila da nema smisla.
Riječi su bježale od mene poput lišća na povjetarcu.
Moji strahovi me izluđuju.
Pokušavam pozitivno razmišljati.
Plakanje mi ne pomaže.
Ni krivljenje same sebe.
Razmišljanje što bi bilo, što je moglo biti.
Borim se sa samom sobom.
Tjeram strah od sebe.
Ne ide.
Ubijam sve svoje želje.
Potekla je krv.
Ostala je zarobljena u praznom pogledu.
Snovi me zovu k sebi.
Pustite me da sanjam.
Sell me the infection, it is only for the weak....
No need for sympathy, The misery that is me....
By : In Flames
Ma, ne vrijedi...
Riječi poput uvenulog lišća bježe od mene na suhom povjetarcu, kao da ih dah anđela otpuhuje što dalje i dalje.
Ne vrijedi vrištati....
Ležim u grobu i pitam se gdje sam pogriješila.
Pokušavam se vratiti u prošlost i zgrabiti taj trenutak kada je sve moglo biti bolje.
Samo jedna izgubljena sekunda pretvorila je moje misli u tišinu i ove očajne riječi koje izlaze iz zašivenih usana samo su pepeo spaljene sreće.
Prah.
Ali odavno sam se prestala pitati zašto ja tu sreću nisam okusila, jer shvatila sam da taj odgovor neću dobiti....
Odgovora nema, jer me nitko ne čuje.
Nitko me ne čuje, jer sam mrtva.
Bar bih trebala biti....
Ležim ovdje u grobu ubodena vlastitim nožem.
Ta oštrica me odvojila i od ono malo stvarnog svijeta u kojem sam živjela.
Grčevito sam stiskala rub one plahte, nisam je ispuštala u nadi da ću se spasiti, ali nisam se uspjela pričvrstiti i ostati.
Ostati na životu.
Nisam mogla znati kakva je smrt...
Lijepa, okrutna, krvava.... podnošljiva.
Nikad ne bih pogodila što me čeka....
Ovdje sam zatočena u vlastitom lijesu, ležim bez mogućnosti da zapovijedim svojem tijelu da se pomakne i čekam da se nešto dogodi.
Da me odvedu...
Gledam u ovu crninu zraka i pitam se jesu li mi oči zbilja otvorene.
Smrtna tišina probija mi uši i pričinjava mi se da na trenutak čujem kišu kako udara u zemlju iznad mene i korake uplakanih ljudi koji misle da sam na drugom mjestu.
Ali još sam ovdje.
Nema raja, nema pakla ni boga ni vraga, ovo je jednostavno ona prava smrt.
Nešto sasvim drugo je bilo naše maštanje o tajanstveno mističnoj smrti, o tužnim dušama bez lica, anđeli, a sve to vrijeme samo smo bježali od činjenice da je prava smrt - ništa.
Ležim, i ne mogu se pomaknuti.
Osjećaj nije nimalo ugodan, jer mogu osjetiti odumiranje vlastitih stanica, i svrbi me to sporo, sporo kolanje mrtve krvi.
Ne mogu se pomaknuti...
Osjećam borbu tih zadnjih kapljica krvi koje bar pokušavaju biti žive.
Ali znam da je prekasno, da sam već samo leš koji čeka svoje raspadanje.
Bit ću živa kad se meso mojeg tijela počne raspadati i polako truliti, šireći grozan smrad koji će ispuniti ovaj lijes.
Ionda ću čuti kako gladni crvi i tko zna kakve još krvoločne podzemne zvijeri grickaju drvo lijesa pokušavajući doći do mesa i krvi, do prave hrane.
Do mene.
I bit ću svjesna tih malih tjelašaca u meni sve dok mi ne pojedu i zadnji ostatak tijela.
Bit ću svjesna jer neznam točno gdje se skriva moja svijest.
To je smrt. Mrtva sam od sad i zauvijek.
